I took a big step……I had my picture taken. I’m used to running the opposite direction when a camera is pointed my way. The main reason for this has been my weight. At only 5’2” I found myself weighing in at 235 lbs. A photo shoot was out of the question.
It’s been 10 months since my weight loss surgery, and I’m feeling like a new me. My liver finally went kerplunk after the weight got so high. I was swollen, exhausted, sore, and my Parkinson’s symptoms were intensified. A liver biopsy revealed I have Nonalcoholic steatohepatitis. NASH is a common, often “silent” liver disease. It resembles alcoholic liver disease, but occurs in people who drink little or no alcohol. The major feature in NASH is fat in the liver, along with inflammation and damage. NASH can be severe and can lead to cirrhosis, in which the liver is permanently damaged and scarred and no longer able to work properly.
My medical team thought gastric bypass was my best option. They felt I needed to get the weight off, and quickly. I took the leap and I’m glad I did. I feel like I’ve gotten my life back. I’m getting close to my goal weight of 130 lbs., I only have 15 more lbs. to lose.
It’s been a real journey to say the least. The weight loss is slowing, which is normal at this point. I no longer snore and my joints are pain free. I still have food challenges at times, however it’s much easier to walk away from unhealthy choices. One unexpected challenge has been hair loss! A bit scary when it started, which was at the three month mark. It’s now growing back in, however in a fuzzy weird way. Hats off to whoever invented the flat iron!
There’s also been some unexpected moments of raw vulnerability. I now realize that my fat was a cozy protective layer. Every now and then I have an odd feeling of loss….almost as if I’ve lost my best friend, food. Food is still pleasurable, but the experience is short lived. My new pouch doesn’t hold a lot, so mealtime is quicker than it was before. I now look at food as a fuel source and try to choose things that will make my engine run smoother.
One of my greatest advocates is my dear friend Lauren. Our paths crossed a few years ago and I feel blessed to have her in my life. She’s a talented woman with a brilliant mind. An accomplished writer and gifted photographer, she somehow talked me into doing a photo shoot. I’m still adjusting to the changes my body is going through and L’s beautiful photos and heartfelt words are helping me wrap my brain around this experience. With a bit of shyness, I encourage you to peek at the photos that Lauren took. Her blog is a feast for the senses, be sure to browse her site to get some food for your soul!
Thanks Lauren for making me feel so very loved.